The self-esteem advocate cried out admitting: ” [part] was and came back from the hospital and still has pain from that miscarriage, and there is no baby. “
Nabela explained that she wanted to film the video now, as it “hurts” because she needs the “support” of her followers.
The YouTuber then read a passage from her diary, sharing: “I want to be upbeat and hopeful but I’m just broken … I don’t feel any hope, just emptiness,” while expressing gratitude for the pregnancy “spontaneous” and miraculous that she had. “I wonder who would have become this baby, what they could have done in this world, how they would have been my world,” she read. “They let me feel like a mom, even if it was just for a week.”
On May 16, Nabela posted a fertility question-and-answer video about “miscarriages, adoption and the pressure of pregnancy” before she even knew she was pregnant. She said she trusted the process, but noted that she and Seth had been trying to have a child since their marriage in 2015.
At the time, she said her doctor warned her that she would likely miscarry several times if she ever had the “chance” to be pregnant. “This fear came over me,” she confessed.
Nabela said that “no matter what” she and Seth wanted to have children, and they tried to adopt from Bangladesh.