Hayes said he shared what Reynolds posted on Instagram before asking him if he associated anxiety with success and, if so, did he find it “scary” to let go of it.
The conversation prompted Reynolds to speak openly about his experiences.
“It’s the dangerous tightrope walker that a lot of people do, I think,” Reynolds said Monday. “I see anxiety as a driver of creativity, but it also has its own cloud and its own veil of darkness.”
He said he was “grateful” for her anxiety, as he was able to make it “useful”, but he also pointed out the demoralizing impact it had on him.
“There’s a lot of insomnia, there’s a lot of sleepless nights where you stay awake analyzing everything,” he said.
The “Deadpool” actor then told the hosts of “SmartLess” that anxiety was something that had been with him “all of his life.”
He identified his childhood as the time when his anxiety started to develop – although he was quick to say that the household he grew up in was not “too horrible in the grand scheme of things.”
But Reynolds said the anxiety started as a child and then spoke candidly about his father and how their relationship had affected him.
“My father was never an easy person to be around. He was like a land mine covered in skin,” he said. “You never knew when you were going to walk in the wrong place and it was going to explode.”
Reynolds said that experience with his father made him always try to predict the future as a child, which meant he felt like he was “constantly living” in a space where something could or no happen.
He said the profession of actor and comedy also requires performers to have the ability to project themselves and anticipate what will happen next.
Reynolds finally came to the conclusion on “SmartLess” that there was a parallel between his anxiety and his job.
“It all kind of sprung from the same thing – those wheels that somehow don’t stop.”