That’s why Jill is the “total bad ass rock star” in Collins’ book. She has traveled the world with her mother and credits her Unfiltered not only for always being there for her, but for exposing her and her friends “to people from all walks of life”, encouraging them “to step out of our comfort zones and experience the unknown”.
They were so close, she explained, that she felt both excessively excited to venture out on her own and a little guilty for leaving her mother (although when Lily first moved out, she only went to the street). But at the end of each day Collins wrote, “She’s my best friend, inspiration, role model, confidante and partner in crime.”
Meanwhile, her father “might still be alive, but most of the time he felt like he was completely gone,” she wrote. Lily remembers constantly worrying about meeting her expectations, hungry for approval he wasn’t there to give. Not being able to tell her how she was feeling only made her angrier, and she says it took about a decade for her to find the courage to say what she is thinking.
Not that a big discussion solved everything (dads aren’t always the best listeners, she notes), and Collins wrote in a letter to his father included in the essay about him in the book, “I forgive the mistakes you made. And while it may seem like it’s too late, it isn’t. There is still so much time to move forward. And I want it. to join me. “
The situation was therefore far more complicated than what Collins had been prepared to share five years previously.