In the diary, Laundrie wrote in part: “I’m sorry to everyone this will affect. Gabby was the love of my life but I know she was adored by many. I’m so sorry for her family, because that I love them.”
On another page, he wrote that Petito was injured and was trying to help him.
“I don’t know the extent of Gabby’s ingerys (sic) only that she was in extreme pain. I ended her life, I thought it was merciful, it was what she wanted, but I now see all the mistakes I made. I panicked. I was in shock. But from the moment I decided, took away his pain, I knew I couldn’t go on without her,” he wrote.
Petito’s cause of death was ruled to be strangulation and the manner of death was homicide, Teton County Coroner Dr. Brent Blue said.
Laundrie’s family attorney, Steven Bertolino, said he released the notebook pages after a meeting with the FBI and an attorney for Petito’s family, where they recovered Petito and Laundrie’s personal effects. .
Bertolino published eight pages of the notebook and it is not known their order in the notebook that was recovered.
On the last published page, Laundrie wrote, “I committed suicide by this creek in the hope that some animals (sic) might tear me apart. May it make part of his family happy.”
The last words on the page, written with a different pen from the previous ones, read: “Please pick up all my things. Gabby hated people who litter.
CNN has reached out to the FBI and the Petito family attorney for comment.